SONDER HAAR

ek weet dat ek jou nooit terug sal kry
en ek is seker dat dit so sal bly
maar al wat ek nog weet
ek sal jou nooit vergeet
wat ek nie sal doen om jou terug te kry

maar jy't gese j will my nooit weer sien
die hartseer wat ek voel het ek verdien
want ek het jou bedrieg
ek het vir jou gelieg
nou moet ek die hartseer alleen oorleef

ek is lief vir jou en dit is waar
my lewe sonder jou is tog so swaar
maar ek is te blameer
vir alles wat gebeur
en by my foute sal ek leer
ek 's lief vir haar
en dit is waar
ek skryf die lied met trane in my oe
sy was die een vir my
en nous dit als verby
die lewe is so swaar sonder haar

sy is die een na wie my hart verlang
maar ek is tog so baie bang
om weer met haar te praat
want ek weet dis te laat
om haar hier in my arms terug te kry

ek's lief vir haar en dit is waar
maar ek besef ons verhoudong is nou klaar
sy was die een vit my
maar nou's dit als verby
die lewe is so swaar
SONDER HAAR

IM SORRY

IM SORRY – for all the times i didnt turn out to be wot u thought i am
IM SORRY – for all the times i said ill never do it again but was human enuf to make the same mistakes
IM SORRY – for the times that i made a choice that didnt suit u
IM SORRY – for the opportunities u thoUght was good for me that i missed
IM SORRY – that i dont fullfill the dreams u have for me
IM SORRY – that ,as per u, i fall for the wrong guy all the time
IM SORRY – for all the times i tried to be truly me but dissapointed u
IM SORRY – for the times i was too honust for ur liking
IM SORRY – when i try to have fun but u feel its an embarresment to u
IM SORRY – that im not good enuf for u
IM SORRY – that i am not perfect
IM SORRY – that i am only human
IM SORRY – that im am not the picture perfect image of what u call a woman
IM SORRY – that i am childish at times
IM SORRY – that i am foolish at times
IM SORRY – that i forgive people too easily
IM SORRY – that i am naive enuf at times to believe that people are not backstabbers
IM SORRY – that I care too much
IM SORRY – that i fail sometimes
IM SORRY – that i have flaws

IM SORRY THAT IT TOOK ME THIS LONG TO SEE THAT OUR FRIENDSHIP IS ABOUT U
IM SORRY THAT IT TOOK ME AGES TO REALISE THAT EVEN THOUGH UR THERE FOR ME AT TIMES U
FORGET ME WHEN U ARE TRULY HAPPY
IM SORRY TO SAY THAT I DONT THINK U DESERVE TO BE MY FRIEND COZ TO ME NO MATTER
WHAT………………………….

IM MY EYES U WERE ALWAYS MY PERFECT FRIEND

PAIN AND MISERY

WHEN I WAS A KID I USE TO LOOK UP TO U
NOW THAT IM ALL GROWN UP I CANT STAND THE THINGS U DO
U GO OUT AND GET DRUNK AND EMBARRES US ALL THE TIME
SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT WITHOUT U MY LIFE WUD B FINE

I NO I SHUDNT FEEL THE WAY THAT I DO
BUT I CANT HELP IT COZ ITS HURTING THE FAMILY AND DEEP DOWN U MUST NO THATS TRUE
HAVE U EVER WONDERED Y I HARDLY BRING ANYBODY HOME?
OR Y NO -ONE EVER COMES VISIT ME AND IM ALWAYS HERE ON MY OWN

ITS COZ IM AFRAID OF HOW U WUD LOOK WEN  THEY COME HERE
THE THOUGHT OF THEM SEEING U LIKE THIS, TO ME IS A CONSTANT FEAR
I DONT LIKE WOT IT IS DOING TO THE PPL I CARE ABOUT
SEEING U LEAVE THE BOTTLE IS SOMETHING I SERIOUSLY DOUBT

FOR GODS SAKE OPEN UR EYES AND STOP UR SHIT
BEFORE ITS TOO LATE AND U GONNA WONDER WOT HAPPENED TO THE PPL U LOVE
I CANT HANDLE IT KASAM I CANT DEAL WITH IT
I HOPE AND PRAY FOR HELP FROM THE MAN ABOVE

U HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR MANY YEARS OF UR LIFE
JUST STEP OUTSIDE URSELF AND SEE WOT THIS IS DOING TO UR WIFE
ALL SHE WANTS IS FOR U TO STOP THIS THING U DO
SO THAT SHE CAN BE HAPPY AND NOT HATE WOTS BECOME OF U

I ASK U FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART TO WAKE UP AND ACT LIKE A MAN
OR ILL SHOW U WOT ILL DO AND TRUST ME I CAN
ILL MAKE U WISH THAT IT WAS JUST ALL A DREAM
PULL URSELF TOGETHER AND GET URSELF CLEAN

SO THIS IS ALL THE THINGS I FEEL INSIDE
THESE ARE THE FEELINGS I ALWAYS TRY TO HIDE
THE SMILE ON MY FACE THAT IS ALWAYS THERE
IS AS FAKE AS BALD MAN WITH ALOTA HAIR

U SHUD SEE THE PAIN U ARE PUTTING US THRU
COZ I PROMISE U WEN U SEE AND FEEL IT …..
THEN DRINKING WUD BE THE LAST THING U WUD EVER WANNA DO

DIRTY LITTLE SECRET

i want u all to myself
i want to touch u
feel u
hold u

i want to feel ur breath on my skin
i want to feel ur lips against mine
wanna hear u whisper sweet nothings in my ear

in my dreams i am all u need
in my mind u are all i need
in reality i cant have u

wen im alone with u its like time stands still
like i could get lost in ur eyes
its like your the only one around
and i just wanna ravish u

CAN U FEEL IT?
CAN U SENSE IT?
CAN U TASTE IT?

all i wanna do is get lost in ur world
all i wanna do is be under ur skin
all i wanna do is be all that u need
all i wanna do is…..
all i wanna do is…..
all i wanna do…..

BUT I CANT

BECAUSE U ARE MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET

who am i

Is this who i really am ….. or am i just trying to find the me i lost
Is this what i really feel …. or is it just a cry for help
Is this wot i want to be …. or am i just trying to turn a need into a want
Is it me i see…. or is it a lie im trying to pass down as the truth

Have i followed my dreams…. or have i lived in a dream world
Am i good enough…. or do i just pretend to be
Have i lost myself…. or am i not seeing the truth
Am i proud of the things ive done…. or am i trying to convince myself that its ok

Am i happy… or have i perfected a fake smile
Is my heart pure…. or have i mannaged to cover the darkness
Do i deserve to be here… or am i stealing someone elses time
Have i done enough…. or have i just painted a pretty picture

have i made the right choices…. or have i convinced myself that i did
am i over it… or do i llike living in denial
am i worthy …. or am i just using it to help me sleep at night
does anybody really love me…. or would i just like to believe they do

what do u see when u look at me…. or do u not even no that i exist
what do u think when i utter a word…. or do u not even listen to a thing i say
do i make u give me a second look…. or have i not even managed to get one
do i leave a mark in ur life…. or am i insignificant

will u remember me wen im gone…. or will u forget i was ever here
do u think im pretty… or do u think im pretty far from it
am i thin enough…..or havent u even noticed i am here
do i keep u interested… or have u not found any interest in me

is this who i really am….. or is this just the me i lost
can u help me find myself….
can u help me see what u see…..
can u help me find the smile again…..
can u help me find the beat in my heart again….

can u….
will u….

coz i dont no who i am
all i see in the morror is a face whitout a name
all i see in the mirror is a smile without a glow
all i see in the mirror is the image of the person i once was
all i see is …..
all i see is….

A GHOST

can u….
will u….

friends with benefits

i have the nicest ass you've ever seen
and my body is amazing (so u keep saying)
u look at me with lust in your eyes
and all u cant think of is how much u want me

u have the friendliest eyes
and the nicest smile
i look at u with want in my eyes
but all i want from u is your heart

we hook up and things get out of hand
we go further than we shud
at first i regret it
but the next morning i secretly hope it will be the start of something great

three days has passed and still no word from u
then suddenly a msg saying "thanx i had fun"
deep down i no its no romantic line
but i still hold on to the belief that mayb it is

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS IS WOT U WANT
no complicated drawn out commitment
FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS IS ALL U HAVE TO GIVE
no promise of a future

i realise that all i am is great intimacy
and love is not want u are interested in
i realise that im making a fool of myself
by hoping that u will want to be with me

the pain is unbearable
another mistake
havent i learnt enuf
havent i grown up

i walk into a quiet room
send u a msg saying "thanx ive had enuf"
close the door and 'BANG'
Its all over

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS
thats not wot i am
FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS
now that im gone wot is left to benefit?

i feel

i feel naked
exposed more than i can handle
u see thru me
all my faults and imperfections

i feel exposed
like a can of worms has jus been opened
u no me
no all my secrets and desires

i feel broken
like a shattered glass
u feel me
feel all my pain and sorrow

i feel sad
like a kid that lost its favourite pet
u hold me
and i can feel my frustrations melting away

i feel fragile
like a new born baby
u touch me
and my heart starts to race

i feel vulnerable
like a heart thats broken for the first time
u taste me
and all my resistance crumbles

i feel wounded
like a soldier in a war
u want me
but im afraid to let go

i feel lonely
like a stranger in a new town
i dont no who i am
and nobody can give me answers

i feel used
like a dirty old sock
u want me
but u dont want my heart

i feel …….
i feel ……
i feel ……
LIKE IM DYING INSIDE
and u will never realise how i really feel

u will never see ME
u only see me