Dear Josh

You've been a light in my life since you've been born a year ago
You've made me dream for you, dreams that i've lost for myself
Hope that i've lost for myself
I now have for you
That one day you'll be happy beyond measure
An abundant life filled with family and friends
Life, love and light
Those are my wishes for you
The things i never had
You're so perfect little guy
A beautiful work of heart, God's
When you smile, every little hurt, every little pain that life has brought my way
Melts away, like it was never there
You're just as amazing as your mom

Love you always
Aunty Nat

I NEED MY PRIVACY

The satel-EYE-t in the sky keeps zooming in
RICA, are you listening?
I've got nothing to hide
Coz I know my most valuables possessions are kept inside

MY SUICIDE NOTE

MY SUICIDIDE NOTE

Believe it or not, my life ends with this poem
Every word, is my flesh and your understanding my bone
I write this poem for you to read,
hopefully you'll understand the reason my pen bleeds
Maybe I'll pass-out as I'm writting this
Casualty on duty like a crook
Death gives me dirty looks
For only God judge me – I'm an open book
To whomever finds this note
I beg you to quote
That I took my life without a gun,a rope
Poison not even a slit throat
I simply picked my pen……
And wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote

Gaping heart wound

There is no wound deeper that the one from the dagger of love.
I watch my lover departs, leaving this drained soul drowning in the tears of sorrow.
Mixed emotions flow through my veins.
Strange, I had a hand in engraving this huge dagger into my heart,
and only when it was removed did I realize the extent of damage created.
Forgive me, how can I not fall for thee when you wear such a smile?

I am drenched in this black water from the dam of empty hearts.
Rinse my skin with your tears of joy.
I live in hope and belief that for once we've met so we should meet again in a while,
and that day will be blessed for that I would heal and mend my soul with your smile.

I am but pleased you are gone, gone with the wind into the  skies.
Only I know how you will land, that land I despair the most, that land of gold
so old and bold sends cold shivers down my spine.
Keep your heart veiled with love because I will let mine bleed on your name.
So please stay true to the game, come back and wipe the lame off my face,
and put a new taste in my mouth.

Be brave young man so I tell myself, climb out of that grave of sorrow,
and pave the way for tomorrow until this crave for your touch is conquered.
Until your palm touches the skin of my heart and brings calm to this chaotic heart of juvenile emotions.
When you eventually bless me with your presence this feeling will blast off like volcanic larva,
and spill on your cheeks in tears that only you can see.
Grace this place and mind your pace as you take your place in my heart.

So this is what you feel when you love,
this is what you feel when the love goes,
this that you feel is sad but dont feel bad this love will be back,
and you will continue on the same track, the track that leads to the mountains of joy.
The track that leads to Mount Everlasting, leaving the pack behind.
So this that is gone is already here, so don't be sad be glad.
This that I feel so sadly is love and this love is for you.
My heart is healed and the sorrow is killed, the future is to be lived.
                              
                                                                                                     Xanti.