black? bright? beautiful? o jus a fool

I am black bright & beautiful
I wonder how I came into life,
what is this world I’m living in?
I hear wierd stuff, unheard sounds
Read unread minds
I see not the light, things that should be outta sight

I am black
beautiful or jus a fool?
I pretend to hate,
heartless..
when I feel worthless
I am incontroll but controlled

I am bright
I fly, high
I touch the sky, stars
I smile, the sun shines
I worry bout no one, but me
bt somehow i care 4 those in need
I cry, hardly, wen heart broken
am i beautiful?

I understand not what life love means (is)
I say it aint pain unless u belive it be (is)
I dream about & of flying easter eggs
I try too hard 2 4give & 4get
I try not to regrete
I hope i learn how 2 give,
4get bout gettin

I am? or am I?
confused?
who am i?
wat am i?
a fool?