In the Stillness of the Night

In the stillness of the night
Slowly life evaporates from my veins
As the heart bleeds
The tears warm streaming down
The sighs of despair to compliment
Memories like a damaged record play
Days gone by of past happiness
Days of laughter and sunshine
Of childhood joys and lessons taught
Lessons learnt, lessons of pain
Of bruised knees and stitches
Lessons of respect and compassion
Days of advice and wisdom
Oh! How I remember you voice
Our last conversation strikingly clear
Your picture on my mantle
Reminds me of our short years
In the silence of the night
My heart bleeds
Tears of warm rivers flow
I know it was your time to go,
But Daddy, I miss you so.

dead faith

Life has stolen what is left of my faith
A thief so cruel, it takes without fail
Till all belief has disappeared
All signs point to everything I have feared
Abundant grace had me deceived
I cried but I don't know what I received

Father has forgotten His daughter's name
And my face has vanished into the flame
Will He love me just the same
After He has seen all my shame

Skeletons overflow in this spiritual compartment
Wherein never existed contentment
My dreams are an upside down illusion
And dreaming of heaven has never been a solution
I am ungrateful, sad and uncertain
And my pure spirit I could not maintain
There is no holy dance left in this body
Only the desire to belong to somebody

My lonesome door is shut tight
The dark has overtaken the light
I will not be set free tonight
As I have lost all ability to fight

The blood on the door has dried
I am bled dry and His hands are still tied
Behind the door death lies in wait
It is yours and my fate
Scarred prayers have reached deaf ears
Blind eyes refuse to see my tears
My soul is shut and lost
How will I be able to pay the cost?

Yesterday I was innocent and brave
Salvation was the only thing to crave
Now I cry for nothingness and a grave
I wave hello to that dark endless cave  

stronger than death

I walk around with a smile on my face
my pride is too much for me to loose
so the pain destroys me from the inside
slowly… slowly and one day it will kill me

I close my eyes everytime i am around you
someone once told me that my eyes were a window to my soul
so i close my eyes and shy away from you
so that you can not see the love burning inside

you see i want to tell you how i feel
but fear of a broken heart entangles me
i want to love you
but fear if rejection is greater
so with my love i walk away

there was a time that you once loved me
but like a good story it came to end
you walked away
but i have not given up for the sake of my heart which is still hoping
though my mind knows that it is over
but my heart is still yearning
so what can i say
i guess i am still hung up

Death

Who is that, crossing the road
I have seen him before
What does he want with me
I try to run from him,
like so many others have done before me,
but I fear there is no escaping him.
He comes at dawn, at noon and at the setting of the sun
He knows no time, no fear and above all,
no remorse.
He cares not for the young, the old or the sick
He strikes with no mercy
What does he want from me
Why does he follow me
I hear his footsteps getting closer and closer,
but when I turn around there is nothing but silence all around me
I hear him again,
I see him,
He is coming fast
I can't get away
He grabs my arm and turns me around
I look at his face
and I see …
DEATH!!!

A starless night

twas a starless night as black as death
chilled was the air to freeze my breath
the fog so thick, the street lights gone
could i be the only one
twasn't the air that chilled my bones
twas the thought of bieng alone
when you left you, left me scarred
feelings felt will now be barred
when i walk, a silent lake
i do not live, although i wake
you do not notice how i shake
was our love yet another mistake
twas a hope that gave me light
hope that made me want to fight
love can be a splendid thing
but love doeth pain with it bring
love as sinister as the dark
can stop a howl, can stop a bark
can freeze the very bones within
and leave the way it doeth begin
so how doeth love know my name
when I, do not play its game
the same as on that starless night
death came to me with all its might

just another chance

I did not even get a chance to say goodbye
you took me by surprise
if i could turn back the hands of time
just another chance

Without you i feel like the  lost sheep
You took everything with you
my heart,my love…
i did not get a chance to say 'I LOVE U'
just another chance

I love you,I love you
I love you

Just another chance  

Until the next season

In memory of Thabo Maepa & Themba Sangweni

My head is heavy
My eyes are raining
Lost in my twenties
Uncertain of my thirties
This migrane is bashing my brains
Bashing my sane insane;
I can no longer embrace
The ache to brave this raging pain away.

When my soul vapourises into ice
I shall fly like an eagle in the sky
I know our meeting was brief
Do not grief for my early leave
For I was called for a reason
Until the next season.

Ngoako Joshua Phalakatshela

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