Dear Josh

You've been a light in my life since you've been born a year ago
You've made me dream for you, dreams that i've lost for myself
Hope that i've lost for myself
I now have for you
That one day you'll be happy beyond measure
An abundant life filled with family and friends
Life, love and light
Those are my wishes for you
The things i never had
You're so perfect little guy
A beautiful work of heart, God's
When you smile, every little hurt, every little pain that life has brought my way
Melts away, like it was never there
You're just as amazing as your mom

Love you always
Aunty Nat

Gaping heart wound

There is no wound deeper that the one from the dagger of love.
I watch my lover departs, leaving this drained soul drowning in the tears of sorrow.
Mixed emotions flow through my veins.
Strange, I had a hand in engraving this huge dagger into my heart,
and only when it was removed did I realize the extent of damage created.
Forgive me, how can I not fall for thee when you wear such a smile?

I am drenched in this black water from the dam of empty hearts.
Rinse my skin with your tears of joy.
I live in hope and belief that for once we've met so we should meet again in a while,
and that day will be blessed for that I would heal and mend my soul with your smile.

I am but pleased you are gone, gone with the wind into the  skies.
Only I know how you will land, that land I despair the most, that land of gold
so old and bold sends cold shivers down my spine.
Keep your heart veiled with love because I will let mine bleed on your name.
So please stay true to the game, come back and wipe the lame off my face,
and put a new taste in my mouth.

Be brave young man so I tell myself, climb out of that grave of sorrow,
and pave the way for tomorrow until this crave for your touch is conquered.
Until your palm touches the skin of my heart and brings calm to this chaotic heart of juvenile emotions.
When you eventually bless me with your presence this feeling will blast off like volcanic larva,
and spill on your cheeks in tears that only you can see.
Grace this place and mind your pace as you take your place in my heart.

So this is what you feel when you love,
this is what you feel when the love goes,
this that you feel is sad but dont feel bad this love will be back,
and you will continue on the same track, the track that leads to the mountains of joy.
The track that leads to Mount Everlasting, leaving the pack behind.
So this that is gone is already here, so don't be sad be glad.
This that I feel so sadly is love and this love is for you.
My heart is healed and the sorrow is killed, the future is to be lived.
                              
                                                                                                     Xanti.

This that you have is mine.

This is me you must accept even if its less than expected.
There is something about yourself,
this that sends shivers down my spine,
this that crawls beneath my skin invading my soul.
This that blows me away and mends the pieces into a circle of joy.
It is that what you have that I crave the most,
this that you have speaks in tongues that only my heart could understand.
This that you have is what I need.

With you around I see the sky with stars, I see the moon in full,
I see your sparkling eyes looking down onto your beautiful smile.
My soul melts from that irresistable gaze.
My eyes are blinded by the blaze from the flames of your passion.
Mission accomplished, I am blessed with your presence at mind,
Oh you are so kind.
Pound for pound, you come out top from the crowd.
Oh let me not say it so loud as this breeze might just blow it away before your feet are found.
Yes, this that you have is mine.
My feelings are cast and I am peeling the past,
let this that you have be the last.

Crumbled In Steps

Taken away from my beloved country. I
am a son to those who would stand outside,
call my name and I would  answer "Im
comming". Sitting and facing backwards on
a raft on the dask of the lastday before the begining
of the new moon of rains. The transaction
had been made and I captivated.

Across my head, past my ears, over my shoulders
the cold.. cold wind blew as I sat and watched
the land drift away and a  new life would begin.

Taken away from my beloved country . I ,
I am a brother to those with two left hands.
Sitting and facing backwards in a raft, my ears
fall deaf to the tone of their voices, but hands idle
to their call. Im tied up to a solid post.

Over waters, in the sea to which my life line extends
to snap from the motherland of many who pride their
graves for having fallen in fought of that beloved land.

Taken away from my beloved country. I, I ..I used
to be a man. A man to that, that knew my place in a
home. Sitting and facing backwards in a raft, my left
leg had broken, my crutch inaccessable. The pain was
excruciating.

Under the spell of daze in pain, I zoned to delusional thoughts
of the yet to be seen land of the pail. I couln't set foot.

Taken away from my beloved country. I, ..I, ….I
was a father.
Sitting and facing backwards in a cannoe. Helplessly
before my very eyes, I sew my world crumble, watched
my flesh get ripped apart.

In pain, I was killed………

When I’m with You

The moment I saw you is that's when I knew.
When I'm with You eternity step back
And my love start to grow!
I feel it growing deep inside my heart,
I feel it growing deep inside me…

Without You there with me,
I'm totally incomplete,
My day is incomplete,
When I remember your touch,
At my face, I feel like I can fly,
And come to your place…

Because I don't wanna face this world alone,
I don't wanna face this world without you,
I need you in my  life,
You are the one whom my heart choose,
The one that my heart loves,

When you are not around I'm feeling
Like a piece of me is missing

I love you Babegirl!!!!!!

The One and the Only Mahlako

Go wena letsobana laka
Kera wena sehlapa ka lebese,
Se ke diriswa ke lerato
Leo ke nago le lona go wena

Bja gago bobotse ere Rosa yeo
E sa tsogo thunya
Wa gago mmele ere o bopilwe
Ele la Morena, a iketlile
Sesego sa gago nke melotsana ya dinonyana nokaneng

Etla go nna moratiwa waka ke
Gofe lerato, re iketle
Kere lege nka hlaka bjang le bjang
Eupsa laka lerato go wena le humile
Boka mong wa meepo

Le tuka boka kgabo ya mollo
Wa dikota, tseo diomilego
Lephadima boka lesea le lenanana
Leo le senago molato le motho.

Nka thaba geo ka nkamogela
Bophelong bja gago
Gore kebe yona hloogo
Ya motse wa gago
Wa rata goba molekani waka
Wa neng le neng…

E fela godimo ga tseo ka moka
Go tseba yo maatla gore eng ke eng
Mang ke mang, kae ke kae
Go wena mmopi waka kere go wena
Kere ke opa leopo ge o tseba
seo kese hlokago

O mphile seo ke senyakago
Kera yona khumagatsana ya
Bophelo bjaka,
Mmago bana baka…..

KEA GO RATA MAHLAKO!!

Glass Vol2

Or am i really the shatterproof soundproof glass? Blocking sound so i can't hear, your rejection, your judgement towards me, switching off my connectivity level to stop feeling that you don't care! Have i crafted my own bench of despair padded with soft cushions of security and fear. Playing host to my own pity party,…afraid to step fast the line of surety and certainty. Is there really a glass, or am i it….

Loneliness

Why am I never good enough
Why do I always end up on my own  
Why is my smile never enough
I am always the wrong one

They say I’m emotional
They say I’m jealous
They say I like to make them my possessions
Why can’t they just see that I am a girl inlove
You do not control how love takes charge of you
Why can’t they just understand me

I am always crying over them
For I feel I can’t live without them
For I feel they make me whole
They make me complete
Why am I lying to myself so hard
For God had made me to do anything I want
He had instilled in me any dream I can dream of
Yes, I can live without them and make the most of it

I have survived all my life this far
I will not let them take this away from me
This is my life, my playground, my drawing board
I will live, play, and learn to do things right
Oh! Hoe greatful I am for those who love me
In spite of my jealousy, emotions and possessiveness
For they know my world better and they see the good in me

A heart song

Sometimes a heart yearns for Love so much
Yet it blinds itself of what Love really is
We cry so often for the one who would love us unconditionally forever
Our humanly eyes tend to differ with our heart in this instances
Yet we choose to follow our eyes decision
We ignore to listen to the song that plays in our heart whenever that special person is in our midst

I had a chance at Love, I had chance to be with  the one my heart chose
Yet I let him go again
Yes it was because my eyes didn’t agree with him
There was a song that played on and on whenever I saw him
Yet I ignored it

Could it have been fear, or because people would talk
I failed Love again
How many times is Love gonna come my way
What if this was the last chance I had
Oh! Dear Love don’t leave me
Oh! My dear song don’t leave my heart
Let the one who love me, hear my heart song

The Passion of Minds

worlds apart … yet no boundaries between us,
miles away … yet no distance between us …

a world created by the passion of a mind,
a planet formed by the desire of a heart,
brick by brick,
part by part.

minutes turned into hours,
and hours turned into days,
confusion between right and wrong,
unknown which way …

our minds touching each other,
our silent voices,
hearts beating as one,
unreal choices …

the silence of night,
burning desire,
lonely hart,
sensual fire …