I am…
I am your ex, the one that walked away, thee one that you pushed away.
The one you hated, the one that refused to commit.
I am the one you didn't give a chance, the one you weren't able to face.
I am the one that hated you for own doings.
Shouldn't be that both of us act muturely,
perhap all would perfects and be happily ever after.
who am i bluffing, lifes not a fairy tale.
There aren't happily ever Afters, come to think of it,
that what makes us grow.
I am the one that loved u, u loved,
but love wasn't enough between us.
I am the one that fought with u, u fought with,
fight got the better of us.
We simply didn't see eye to eye,
we agreed to disagree.
That why we should part ways,
at the end of it all muturity came through for us.
We both are happily ever after…
Why I did it
I know I offended you
I did what I did to free myself
I realized it is the only way to keep you away from your lies
Because I couldn’t cope when you are around
You had to lie to me every time you talk to me
It may be over the phone, face to face
It didn’t make any difference
So I just got tired of being lied to
Do you know how does it feel to be lied to?
Especially by someone you consider important in your life
The worst thing was I could see though your teeth that you are lying
And every time I say “you are lying” you get angry
What was I supposed to do for you to come clean?
I never demanded anything from you
All I ever wanted was for you to tell the truth
I never start something I can’t handle
I don’t know about you
I didn’t want to destroy you because I built you
They say “Too much of anything can make you an addict”
You hanged out with the wrong crew for a long period
You ended up adapting to their lifestyle
Now you are fucked up in the cycle of lies, whoring
And you are expecting me to keep it to myself
As if I don’t see shit, in your fucken dreams
Nobody knows your capability more than I do
You’ll have to understand that I did what I had to do to be free
You can’t be trusted in anything, you lie for a living
You are selfish and you can’t do anything for the next person
All you can do is please your ass and bitches around you
I thought you are different from all the bad guys I know
But I lied, I couldn’t see from a distance.
I said I was never gonna break your heart, but I did by telling you the truth
I love you but that doesn’t mean I don’t love myself
When something goes wrong in any situation
We’ve got someone to blame but I don’t blame you
The company you kept destroyed you, mentally!
Compiled by: Oduetse Gabonnwe
Why don’t you allow me?
Why don’t you allow me?
So much has happened to your life lately
Things that you never thought that they could happen to you
Have actually happened
You heard about it but it seemed far from your reach
You allowed those who love and appreciate you
To lose close contact with you
For you thought He is your soul mate
You gave all that you had but it was all in vain
Now you have lost trust to all men asking for your love
You have concluded that all men are the same
I’m asking why don’t you allow me to wipe your tears.
And remind you that the world of Romeo and Juliet still exist
In this confused universe were people are opposing nature
Claiming to be woman whereas born man
The anger and the pain you suffered
Are making my emotions roll like a thunder when blizzard
Is about to destroy a land of the devil one
Who made you suffer the emotions of anger and bitterness
For there is no lady who deserve to be punished like what
Your then Mr. Right did to you
No wander depression nearly killed you
I repeat why you don’t take a leap of faith
And trust men and enjoy being loved for a second time
For a second time promises an enormous love, love that will wash away
The colour of sadness that dilutes your happiness and brings back your smile that enlightens life
A smile that quench thirst to them who are yearning for your love
A smile that brings hope to broken hearts
Hearts that are in need of a place to rest
Why, why don’t you allow me to flock into you heart
And revitalize it so that the spring of love comes back to you
For your heart is thy place where my joy comes from
Is it to much what I’m asking for?
By: Elton Ntsauko “Mr. Pres” Sibiya
On my own
On my own
I don’t know if I want to forgive you.
A part of me wants to hold you close
by not forgiving you
by being angry at you
so that I am justified,
in my frustration,
anger,
and pain.
Because it feels good
when I am in pain
because of you.
I don’t want to let go
of you,
and the pain you have caused me
otherwise it will feel as if
you did not matter.
That we did not matter.
Me and you,
together, we mattered not,
yet in my heart of hearts
I believe in you,
in us.
Us is such a huge concept,
it was me and you
facing the world.
But now I am alone again,
alone with my anger, pain and hurt.
Alone once more
to face this world on my own.