i have a secret

I wish you could just understand my situation
As complex as it is, it just calls upon more complications
This is not how I want us to be,
Not how I want you to be, not how I want things to be
When I get silent at times its not that I don’t want to speak
When I tell u lies it’s not because I want to lie to you
It’s because I know you can’t handle the truth
I understand your anger because I too get angry at myself, time and time again
It’s not as simple as it may seem to be because it’s all pain and pain
I get afraid to cry when I am with you, I’m afraid you won’t understand why I cry
And I know you won’t even cry the same level with me
Because I have a secret, one I cannot tell
Rejection is what I fear the most, I too am a human.