i heard you

i heard you
whispering the soothing words
‘sh sh sh really it won’t hurt’
well, it did
i tell you now
it did hurt

i heard you
your voice a plea
begging the unforgiving eyes
‘you trust me, don’t you?’
well, I don’t
i tell you now
i don’t trust you

i saw you
your smile
thinner than ice in spring
with failed assurances
‘you will enjoy this’
well, I didn’t
i tell you now
i didn’t enjoy it

the scars are deep
the blood still flows
the tears still drown
her pillow at night
and still

i see you
day and night
asleep and awake
i see you
but now
i know who you are