is my grave too big for me

What did I do not to have it?
What can I do to get it?
How will I do it?
Do I need help?

Is my grave too big for me?
Do I still have to get more in life in order to fit?
Where do I find it?
If it’s there bring it to me
If it’s here why can’t I see it?

Why can’t I see happiness?
Why can’t I see the bright light?
Why can’t I see the shining star above?
Why is it storming in my world?

Did I do something wrong
Did I disappoint someone?
Did I make someone cry?

Then if I did
Please let me go
Let me set your heart free
Let me set my heart free

When I am gone there will be no more
Worries from your side
Nor worries from my side

But for now my grave is too big for me.