Lost, alone and empty

under pressure from family and friends,
the constant moaning never ends.
Everything i say and do is a sin,
i try to be fair but i never win.
don't do it that way, do it this way i'm told,
i live in a prison where its constantly cold.
No one ever understands me,only i
I cant do right from wrong but i always try.
I smile and I'm accused of frowning,
i cry so much that I'm afraid of drowning
i feel lost, alone and empty.
If i was to go away, would anyone miss me?