My mind

I see the beauty around me
wish it was like that inside me
the innocence of then now
replaced by guilt within.

Remember smiling faces
washed and faded, stored
into mere empty thoughts
If I could but bring back
the child that I once was
for now in all I do there's
a rhythm of consequences
which forces every moment
to be a harsh and cruel reality
Its filled with decisions so
unlike a child who does as told
I now follow self set orders that
confuses every aspect of heart
As no one can always follow.

The beauty now fades to grey
as I sink deeper into this sad
and secret world that offers me
nothing but a faded type of reality