remembrance

the memory
out of nowhere
the memory of you
it's so real
the tears find their forgotten pathways on my cheeks
my head bows
my shoulders slump
the weight of sadness
pulls me into the pain of missing you

my eyes close
moving pictures
of your life
shared moments

i feel your love wrap itself around me
as you smile
you take me in your arms and everything is right again
my head buried in your neck
your warmth
your smell
our shared laughter

i remember

the joy
the overwhelming love
the devastating loss
i ache from the very depths of my soul

the knowing

in this life
i will never
see you again,
touch you,
talk to you,
hold your hand,
cry with you,
be with you,
tell you i love you
hear you tell me the same

never

the ache
it’s in my breath
it’s in every heartbeat
i can’t
how
and then
your love
your strength
you’re with me

you gave me life
you showed me love's gifts
you guided me on life's pathways
you picked me up when i fell
you believed in me when i couldn't go on
you waited for me when i was lost
you held me when i felt i was alone
you loved me always

you will be forever
my best friend
my mother