First sms to khentsane

words are failing me to tell you
how you have inflicted
flames of joy and happiness in my heart
I don't know you and you don't know me
but I'm willing to get to know you and
also share with you what I feel for you
I have never in my life felt like this
you have mesmerized my heart with love

Fairytale

This aint a letter,neither lyrics to a song
Aimed at no one specific,so dont get me wrong
Have you ever felt dead even though you havent died
Do you often feel life to its full,is sometimes denied
Have you ever felt whole,or mostly broken
Has your voice fell silent, with words unspoken
Where is my happiness,where is my laughter
Life seems exempt from happily ever after
Many are my affliction, many are my fears..do you even see my sun-dried tears
So you wait for the day, when your soul will be free, do you ever miss you, coz i miss me…

selfish happiness

Why is always too late to be yourself
Why do we wait till we cannot define ourselves
It is the excuses we make for others that makes us choose ourselves the last
Why does it take heart break to break free
break free from out illusions of Love
What is this love that  eludes us so bad we forget ourselves

Why does it always have to be too late to be happy
to surround ourselves with what we love most
why do we always know how to make others happy but forget ourselves in the act
what makes us happy that we suppress till it’s too late

Is it ever too late to be happy
to loose yourself enough to be selfish
to be selfish of being you and doing what you love
what you love for yourself and the sake of selfish happiness
I dare you to judge my selfishness happiness
yes the happiness that I own

I am the happiness and I will pursue it
I will nurture it  so that I grow old with it

A Beautiful Soul in Peril

How is it that you seem to believe that you are blissfully safe in the hands of peril,
When you and I know that you accepted a partnership and the aim of the business was to sell your soul to the devil. . .

Hiding behind the shades to escape all the shame of what people are bound to see and saving yourself another reason to cover up the truth,
Your love for him has turned to fear and your pent-up scars will stand trial as the prosecuting proof. . .

You always told me that love would set you free, now your liberated expressions remain unexpressed throughout the rest of your living days,
Avoiding and by all means, you trying your best to not aggravate his swollen pride by putting food on the table and keeping legs open wide and staying away from friends out of fear that you are bound to confide and reveal the concealed and he would realise. . . that his control over you is beginning to fade away!

No one knows the universal power of the spoken word than you coz it was his spoken words that broke you down and made you shy-away,
Yet again, it was his very words; his convincing and sadistic words that made you stay. . .

Despite the fact that happiness was just a smile away,
Your spiritual pleas for soul-liberation made the heavenly angels shed a tear every time you prayed. . .

You’re an Ebony Queen looking for Soul-liberation,
With a Melody-dream searchin’ for Soul-meditation. . .
You’re in elevation, but you’re A Beautiful Soul in Peril,
How could you find happiness selling your soul to the devil?. . .

I am ready

I am ready…

I never thought for one moment I would ever feel like this,
Let alone with someone as kind and wonderful like you,
You really have brought light in my life,
Which was filled with the darkness of loneliness, hurt and disappointments
No more can I say I am alone and worthless,
Because YOU have erased all of that, and more…

Before you came along my world was filled with pain and heartache,
I was ready to give up on ever finding love again,
Thanks to the cruelty and unfeelingness of certain individuals in this world,
Who do not understand the importance of being true and honest to the one that loves,
My heart couldn’t take it any more and I lost hope,
In the mist of it all, you suddenly appeared in my life,
To bring the needed happiness and joy I so longed for so long.

Remember the night we met,
The night my life took a turn for the best,
Its crazy thinking about it now,
But I am thankful I met you that very night,
The night that was written in my stars,
To change my life completely forever,

Letting you into my heart was not easy at all,
I always questioned your intentions you had with me,
Whether you were gonna hurt me again,
The way I have always been,
But something inside me opened up,
And my heart was not afraid to let you come in,
Because it knew what great happiness you’d bring to it,

No more can I be afraid with you,
I am ready to let myself go,
I am ready to explore the world of love with you by my side,
I just don’t know what else to say,
There’s really nothing left to say
There’s really nothing more I can say
But I love you…

I am ready…I am ready…I love you and I am ready for you to love me

Peace

Wt is peace?
Is it silence?
Is it feeling light?
Is it being alone?
Is it quietness?
Is it happiness?
Is it joy?
Jesus is the prince of peace!

Is it that finding a long lost friend?
Is it that feeling of holding a newborn baby?
Is it spending time with your best friend?
Is it holding hands with your love?
Is it just loosing yourself?
Or is it just having fun? No that’s not enough,
“I give you peace, my peace I leave with you” says the Lord.

What really is peace?
Is it being successful?
Is it that feeling of getting what you always wanted?
Is it a dream come true?
Is it doing what you do best?
Is it enjoying the fruits of your hard labour?
Is it being awarded for you good work?
Its more than that, Jesus is and will always be peace.

Is peace a smile when you are confused?
Is it a hug when you are in need?
Is it comfort when you are hurt?
Is it a shoulder to learn on when you cant stand on your own anymore?
Is it ears of a dear friend when you need to talk?
No, its deeper than that, Jesus is peace!

Is Gods presents peace?
Is it obeying Him?
Is it following Him wherever He goes?
Is it knowing that you are loved, taken care of, fearfully and wonderfully made?
Is it knowing that no weapon formed against you shall prosper?
Is peace knowing that God will never leave nor forsake you?

What is peace really?
Is it knowing that He has plans to prosper you not to harm you?
Is it believing that He loves you unconditionally?
Is it believing that He sent His only Son Jesus the Prince of peace to die for you?
If Jesus lives in you, you have peace, you know peace!

is my grave too big for me

What did I do not to have it?
What can I do to get it?
How will I do it?
Do I need help?

Is my grave too big for me?
Do I still have to get more in life in order to fit?
Where do I find it?
If it’s there bring it to me
If it’s here why can’t I see it?

Why can’t I see happiness?
Why can’t I see the bright light?
Why can’t I see the shining star above?
Why is it storming in my world?

Did I do something wrong
Did I disappoint someone?
Did I make someone cry?

Then if I did
Please let me go
Let me set your heart free
Let me set my heart free

When I am gone there will be no more
Worries from your side
Nor worries from my side

But for now my grave is too big for me.

kids

I played with young ones today
I saw the joys of life
Of memories long lost in my soul,

The happiness an ice cream brings to their eyes
The reckless abandon of mess all over their face
The sheer ecstasy of the smile you receive
When the kid sees you looking at their messy face
What bliss.

All this delight is a insensitive reminder to me
Of my unfruitful kin.
My supreme fear is rested its head in my haven.

So Moms and Dads when you feel you have had enough
Remember to buy your masterpiece an ice cream
And behold your joy
This is love bartered out of life.

The Event

Riotous applause
Happiness abounds
Your heart is racing
We won we won

Home time dawns
The event fades the heart

Crossing the entrance to loneliness
You enter your prison, your safe haven
Empty in soul you crave the last few hours
Bring them back, bring them back
Just for the emptiness to fill
How do I deal with in this barrenness
I cant,
All I can is endure  

Events massacre your mind
However brilliant

What is Love

Love is everything,
love is everywhere.
Hush!  now is the time.
For it to find you.

Love is happiness,
love is bliss.
Hush!  hear,
loves song.

Love is life,
love is energy.
Hush!  feel,
loves gentle touch.

Love is beauty,
love is art.
Hush!  see,
loves splendour all about.

Love is food,
love is nectar,
Hush!  taste,
loves bounteous feast.

Love is fragrance,
love is scent,
Hush! smell,
loves aromatic path.

Love is enchanting,
love is ensnaring,
Hush!  catch
loves magic charm.  

18 November 2006