who am i
Is this who i really am ….. or am i just trying to find the me i lost
Is this what i really feel …. or is it just a cry for help
Is this wot i want to be …. or am i just trying to turn a need into a want
Is it me i see…. or is it a lie im trying to pass down as the truth
Have i followed my dreams…. or have i lived in a dream world
Am i good enough…. or do i just pretend to be
Have i lost myself…. or am i not seeing the truth
Am i proud of the things ive done…. or am i trying to convince myself that its ok
Am i happy… or have i perfected a fake smile
Is my heart pure…. or have i mannaged to cover the darkness
Do i deserve to be here… or am i stealing someone elses time
Have i done enough…. or have i just painted a pretty picture
have i made the right choices…. or have i convinced myself that i did
am i over it… or do i llike living in denial
am i worthy …. or am i just using it to help me sleep at night
does anybody really love me…. or would i just like to believe they do
what do u see when u look at me…. or do u not even no that i exist
what do u think when i utter a word…. or do u not even listen to a thing i say
do i make u give me a second look…. or have i not even managed to get one
do i leave a mark in ur life…. or am i insignificant
will u remember me wen im gone…. or will u forget i was ever here
do u think im pretty… or do u think im pretty far from it
am i thin enough…..or havent u even noticed i am here
do i keep u interested… or have u not found any interest in me
is this who i really am….. or is this just the me i lost
can u help me find myself….
can u help me see what u see…..
can u help me find the smile again…..
can u help me find the beat in my heart again….
can u….
will u….
coz i dont no who i am
all i see in the morror is a face whitout a name
all i see in the mirror is a smile without a glow
all i see in the mirror is the image of the person i once was
all i see is …..
all i see is….
A GHOST
can u….
will u….
Makhosonke
You are not my father only…
You are my hero in your own way
You are my strength
You are a cool father
You are the installed motivational speaker
You are such a wonderful being
When I see I good man I see you
When I see a child smile I see you
When a Women is happy I know you are around
I can't bealive this
When I think of it I cry
Not because I am hurt
But because of the sweet memories of having the father like you
My faith in Us
I love you and…
I think that you love me
But I do not get why you walked away from us with such certainty,
when you are the one thing that keeps me sane.
I will be mad at you, you will still hurt me so but
I do not see me hating you.
For when you said I have your heart,
I believed you
When you whispered to me that you care for me,
I trusted that
And when you held me tight at night, against your better judgment,
I knew that nothing could hurt me and
I felt protected
Now I miss you here by my side,
Cause no one makes me smile like you,
And my sun shines a bit dimmer than when you are holding my hand.
So know that you have my love
And yes, I do think of you,
hoping that you find your way back to us.
As you have been mad at me, I might have hurt you
But you can not hate me too…
cause we both make each other smile.
Inspiration
Vukile Mavuya
07/02/08
Remember, yes!
I's not,
The picture that makes one suffer
It's not,
The picture that makes you rejoice
It's not, but
The memories of that day that make you smile
It's not but
The smile on that day that makes you happy
It's not, but
The thoughts of that day only that makes you comb your scalp
It's not, but
The truth on that day that sends you mid-afloat
It is, but
What you should cherish today and the next season until you perish!
Drifting
Its like a dream yet I feel it in reality
Deep inside I wanna cry, but wont let it show
I see it coming cause its written in her eyes
Though she tries to hide but her eyes says it all
Deep in her voice its hidden
A funny smile gives it away
Slowly and surely I feel her drifting
Her voice echoing from the other side
never run out of light
whenever you feel like you are walking on the darkest sand ,
send me a note and i would give it a look,
whenever you feel like you lost the shape of your road,
write me your heart's one and i would lighten it up,
whenever you find out that you are going down the deepest drain,
draft me a date and i would date my day,
tell me when you cry,
when you smile,
when you are mild,
for miles is your view when in my heart you are filed with light,
am your light in loss,
your shadow in shame,
your rod to road,
your life to light.
The Feeling
Have you ever had the feeling
When your heart just pumps faster when having thoughts about something,
When a feeling of fear and joy just arise within you all at once.
The feeling that makes you feel good about having a responsibility
The feeling that makes you see only the good,even if it is beyond the bad and hard times.
The feeling that just gives a solution to every problem
The feeling that makes you smile, smile and just smile again
The feeling that brightens your soul and make your bones feel less strong
The feeling that makes you sit back, and think nothing in this world can be this good.
The feeling, when your smile feels inferior simple because a much better smile is smilling right back at you
I'm talking about the feeling, the feeling that is evoked by the hearts of all hearts, by the smile of all smiles,
by those nice fantasies, those wonderful memories,those beautiful thoughts and nice said things.
The feeling that brings out all of your innocence.
This is the feeling I have everytime I see my baby girl's tiny face.
The feeling that keeps me going and going no matter how tough the going gets or how troubled my heart is.
This feeling is me, this feeling is by me for you baby.
Keep smiling so that this feeling can keep me going.
Keep smiling so that this feeling can always draw me close to you at the end of the day
Keep smiling because your smile keeps me smiling and loving you
Keep smiling baby …….. just keep smiling.
Seven Smiles
You have seven different smiles and all of them are poetry
Your first smile is my favorite. You smile when you see me
Your second smile is sexy because you seem so innocent
That smile did attract me and it made me compliment
The third smile appears when you hear our favorite song
It shows me were I want to be and tells me we belong…
Smile number four is for something that’s not funny
But you pretend to smile, a smile that’s almost like fake money
Then there’s that smile that makes me, almost, want to cry
When you hide your pretty face and you smile so sweet and shy
Smile six is simply magical and it always makes me happy
It’s when you laugh at my dumb jokes and then you say “Oh, Dopey”
When you look into my eyes I realize smile number seven
Is the smile that I believe was made for you in heaven.
A Moment
Just a moment.
Yes, a moment in time,
A moment in your day,
A moment in your life.
To act, create
to grieve, to cry
to smile, to laugh.
to love, to hate.
Do not grasp,
do not seize,
do not hold,
do not attach.
Its past, it’s gone
it’s not alive
its dead, it’s done.
So leave it now.
13 February 2007