the rise and rise of a 07

As I lay on my bed
I think
I find it hard to forget it
It has been with me all my life
It is very demanding
It's urges are rising with each day
It is on a campaign bigger than that of Jacob Zuma
What should I do
Should I give in to its demands?
I have hurt people I claimed to love because of it
I have outwalked the furthest city lights for it
I have cried; laughed and went on my knees for it
I have taken life threatening risks for it
But every day, it demands more
The more I give it, the more it wants
Should I give in?
I am tired now
When I am at work
It's there
When I am in the toilet
It comes
How can I escape it