What happened June 17th

Yesterday my soul died
I felt it crumbling with each breath that I took
Inhaling the stench of death as it filled my chest
And the bitter taste of rock bottom thickened on my tongue.
Yesterday my heart stopped
And the silence was deafening as it cried out the words
YOU ARE ALONE so deliberately
As if to salt the telling cracks realized after
My sanity was shaken & taken from me.
Yesterday I choked on emptiness as I opened my mouth
To plead for his help most divine, most kind
And the parchedness of my throat caused it to ache as
I swallowed my poisoned truth.
Yesterday my heart slowly pumped
A venomous fluid through my veins and
I felt myself willingly losing sensation in my feet,
My knees and eventually numbing my Spirit
That chose not to fight the fight you say I can win.
And laying there deceased to myself,
I wished for nothing more, than for even less.
Yesterday the pain that I felt consumed me
Sending a burning, quivering, unsettling
Sense of pure madness through me…
Because all this lingering lunacy
Just wasn’t enough to make it real.
As I peel open my eyes to the a world relentless
To another day of no alternatives.